As I'm trying to come up with something to say, he stands there looking at me. He loves me and I have never been able to say the samething. I want to, but I can't love him the way I should. So I say something that will break him, As I say it, I hate myself. "Eric, you need to get the F out of my life. I never loved you and I never will," Emily -----> Eric
I feel I'm somehow responsible for everybody'd bad / sad feelings and misfortunes. Feel as a failure if I can't help and feel like traitor if I ca't help "enough". I feel i've got no right to ask anything for myself, though ...