What would I do in that 15 min? Prob what I posted on our secret board.... Keep thinking of things I could have done differently. Like not allowing so many months to go by without seeing you. At least I told you how crazy in love I was with u everyday. Hope u believed me. If only I had the luxury of showing you, too....but doubt it would have changed your mind. I wish I could see you one more time.....Have one more kiss. : (
I am exhausted. This is too hard. I do not feel like you are ready to make a decision. I am so tired of crying, disappointing everyone and feeling like a piece of shit. I am not doing well at all. D wants us to try. Is willing to let me go so I can try with u. Thinks that is the only way all of us will have peace. U and E are not there. Why not? Do u want me to walk away? I want to see u this weekend but once I leave, a decision needs to be made. I'm sorry. I know u understand. I love you.
Wow. What a night. Divorce is moving on. He is so done with me and the bs. He is sooooo pissed that my numbers are blocked after all of this. He feels sorry for me. After all of this and ill be alone and the kids will suffer. Talked for awhile and it didn't go anywhere. I feel an inch tall. How are u?