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If you have only one smile in you, give it to the people you love. - Maya Angelou
I don't do any of these often, but I admit, I have done every single one of these to you. You deserve it. You put him through so much and then acted like a victim - to this day you still blame him for all the crap that you essentially forced him into doing. You never treated him like e deserved to be treated and you took advantage of what he gave you. He (and his family) regret ever allowing you to share his Kyoto experience with him - "the worst trip of my life". You were hated by his friends, his family, and now him. You continue to cross the line, doing what you claimed to hate so much when you were with him. And I can't, or won't, forgive you for that. You deserve this. You might not choose to be honest with your friends and family about all the shit you did, but he still hasn't forgotten. (And by the way...he knows you cheated on him. ) You don't deserve his forgiveness. You don't deserve his kindness. You are not welcome anywhere near him, or us, ever again. He gave you more than you deserved. And I will always hold that against you.