I did this. I wanted to die. I contemplated telling my therapist that, how torturous this was, and how I wish they'd let me die because at least I could be in peace. And I'd be thin. The two things I want most. The biggest of the biggest dialectics. A paradox. I want to be peaceful and I want to be deathly thin. A recipe that doesn't work unless you are dead.
The thoughts in the head of a depressed person. Dont kill yourself guys. Yes its fu**ing god dam* hard to moveon and not feeling so depressed. But its going to past, it does Belive me_it does 💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜