We feel angry and embarrassed when we are sucked in by someone who lies and manipulates. We resent the time, energy and love we offered them in good faith because it was all for nothing. They don't even appreciate what they took from us because it is never enough for them. Once we see through them, they search for a new victim and we can't even give out a warning because the liar is so good at what they do - they do it all the time. We can only watch and wait and hope...
I no longer know how to be anybody else. I just know how to be cold.. to keep myself safe I need to stay cold. I am The Ice Queen.... someday I'll get it all back, I will be me again. Safe and sound behind my wall of ice.
When I’m upset I shut myself down I have no motivation for anything I tell myself that nobody cares even though I know some do I think about all the negative things I could possibly think about I give myself all the pain thinking I deserve it I’m not sure | followpics.co
One day my mother-in-law, found out I had depression. She called me up and said, "Just try not to think about it." To this day I have no idea what "it" was! I have no reasons to be depressed. Quite the opposite really.