I realize I checked out. When you asked me to fight for us...I did. I let you in and tried to fix all the wrongs you had about me...then YOU stopped. You should have loved me despite what you saw as "wrong with me"!!! Sad thing is...I've always had that wall so no one could. I let it down for you and you do. The wall is back...if you aren't going to try...I'm NOT either! I can check out again. Don't expect me to come back though.
I feel broken inside and I just can't believe I'll ever feel any differently. I don't know how to heal myself. I try but just when I think I'm getting somewhere, it disappears like sand through my fingers. Will I ever feel whole again? Life has worn me down so much, I just don't know anymore. What keeps me going? I truly don't know Xx ❤❤