You deserve that your mind no longer induces the same thoughts of when they hurt you over and over again. Thus, to forgive them is to forgive yourself. As it might well be that unconsciously you've judged yourself guilty of what they did to you. You never were.
Don't forget what you came out of, but keep your eye's on the Lord! Our resentments will keep us sick; they are the number 1 offender. Forgiveness is powerful for the person forgiving - Set that bag of bricks down before God and let Him take that burden from you; and He will give you Peace.