God is there for you. Sometimes you think he's not, but you have to know he is. Things change and there are times where you don't want that to happen but have faith and trust that God will help you out.
Twin flame love brings up all your stuff. It takes a lot of courage, brutal honesty and surrendering to travel through the dark night of the soul together. It has to be done to become one again. Lifetime after lifetime. An eternity of love.
Take a shower, wash off the day. Drink a glass of water. Make the room dark. Lie down and close your eyes. Notice the silence. Notice your heart. Still beating. Still fighting. You made it, after all. And you can make it one more. You're doing just fine.