It's better to be alone sometimes... Lately depression has really bit me in the ass.... All i do all day is listen to music while crying alone in my room... ever sense my best friend moved away so much depression has come and im supirsed im still here... js
My mother still hasn't called for my doctor's appointment. I feel sick. and sad. And bloated. My ribs and stomach hurt like crap and my anxiety is through the roof. I need a diagnoses so I can figure out if I'm bipolar or idek what's going on at this point.
Today is such a day for me.The battle that I have been waging with the demons that my abusers planted in me, and let flower for so long, is wearing me down. Here I am, the one who wants to serve as the beacon of hope amidst the hell hole we know as child sexual abuse, faltering. Finding it hard to take another breath without searing pain in my chest. This road to healing is so hard and so long. Please know that faltering is part of the package. And I do, only what I can and that is to go…
Theme for life. I have spent a lot of time kicking myself for hurt I caused but at some point letting go is all the power we have so I let go of those who said they love no matter what, they don't and I can't own that so this Monday I say good-bye! I will love forever from a distance.