The hardest part of being a mother is guilt. The guilt of not being enough. As long as your kids know you love them, because you show them, you'd never ever leave them, you are giving it your best, they'll be ok.
We made the decision before we got married that I would stay home with our children. After diabetes diagnosis, and then another it was not a choice. There is no way I could hand off my 11 month old diabetic son so I could go to work. It's not about being kept, it's about doing what was right for my children.