and then i notice how a group of them act and get all paranoid so i test it out the next day to see how they'll react and they usually are normal and even friendlier than i though im like UGH WHY BRAIN
Trying to stay under control makes the pain build up and get buried away. The lack of leeway to express emotions that are too extreme for most to understand or sympathize so you keep it in until it comes out in the wrong ways.
And they can be disguised as good friends until they decide to test the boundaries w/a psychotic break that they will later blame you for. BEWARE. I felt so alone in dealing with this. Can't describe to anyone because the world believes all mothers are saints. I've been alone with this for 55 years. No more! Thank you, Pinterest!
Self-Soothe is a DBT Distress Tolerance skill that can help reduce stress. A way to remember this skill is to think of soothing one or more of your five senses: seeing, hearing, smelling, tasting, touching.
I think schools should have a mandatory mental health class that you get a credit for , where you learn about depression, anxiety, eating disorders, schizophrenia, and other mental disorders. And you also learn good coping skills and ways to get help.