Be confused, it's where you begin to learn new things. Be broken, it's where you begin to heal. Be frustrated, it's where you start to make more authentic decisions. Be sad, because if we are brave enough we can hear our heart's wisdom through it. Be whatever you are right now. No more hiding. You are worthy, always. - S.C Lourie
Sometimes this happens - sometimes my soul is just tired. Often confused with "Depressed" often the intuitive self is calling for "Deep Rest". Listen to your needs... Allow yourself time and patience to heal.
Tom, though he becomes the leader, starts out very confused and not sure on what he should do and what the norms are at times. "How'd I know? I'm jus' puttin' one foot in front a the other. I done it at Mac for four years, jus' marchin' in cell an' out cell an' in mess an' out mess. Jesus Christ, I thought it'd be somepin different when I come out!" (Steinbeck 173).