Which is why I dream of you nearly every night still. I still cry at night and think of you in the mornings. I can't see you without being overwhelmed with feelings and that's why I can never go back to our church.
"I suffer in silence. I don't cry in front of people. I can smile despite how shitty things are. I will always put you before me. I leave my phone on at night just in case someone needs me. It's because I love everyone else more than I could ever love myself. What can I say, I'm just a screw up with a good heart."
Saddest thing instead of getting easier it's getting harder, cry every night begging God to bring you back, wake up at 2am screaming looking for you, but your no where near & all I can do is cry & hurt..
I cry at night when i'me alone and check my messages on my phone, hoping that one day somebody will care, but all they ever do is stare. And then the blood drips down my wrist, again and again and again...<<< that's depressing