I have lived this and I will never waste time like that again. Time you can never get back. And you can feel so alone even when you are with someone. I would rather be alone then lonely with someone else. You should never feel that way in a good healthy relationship.
And why is that. Not for my ex, but for everyone around me. Why do I feel so alone in a crowd. The one time I feel truly happy is when I'm around the one I'm beginning to love, or perhaps beginning to want to love is better. And why can't I tell her so, despite how I feel. It's just fear, fear of rejection. Because if she says no, I'll again be broken.
behind-those-broken-blue-eyes: I have no one. I have no one who cares, I have no one to talk to. I have no one that’ll try to understand, I have no one to listen. Everyone has left. No one’s there for me. Absolutely no one. I’m so alone. I just need someone to hold me. I just need someone that I can run to on bad days and know they’ll be there with open arms.
Yeah I'm tired of having to be strong and do what's right tired of every time things start to get better something happens I just want to run as far away as I can't figure what I am doing wrong I am a good person I would do anything thing for anyone just about and I just feel so alone and it sucks but I guess that's life we are supposed to knock off the dust and get back on but how many times can you be thrown before you break........
Why am I so easy to reject and abandon? I've wondered this my whole life,I always feel I'm not worth the fight. So I have to be good to myself and make myself feel good. I know that God cares. If I didn't know that I probably would go insane. Some days are harder than others to keep focused that God is always there. Some days I just feel very alone in the world.