There isn't anything that you could have done that makes it important for you to hold yourself against or away from the love of Source Energy. In other words, just give in to it; surrender to your goodness. Accept it and stop taking the word of others or even your own condemnation about things. Just let it go and watch how in your now you will be filled with all of the clarity that is surrounding you, and life will go on feeling really, really, really, really good.
I say this all of the time. The mundane parts of life can be adventures! It's all in the way you look at things. Maybe it's being a sensualist, and not just in a sexual way, sensualist to life. A farmers market in the weekend? The sight, of all the people and produce, the sounds, the smells, the weather...These kinds of experiences are meant to be shared and enjoyed! It's about being alive and having the good fortune to have someone to share a life with.