im petrified if truth be known. i cant help it, something in me is broken and im so scared.im scared of everything,everyone, what if they turn out to be just like him, what if they say they love me, and then abandon me, use all my fears and insecurities against me and wittle me down till theres nothing left. im only just clinging on, i cant tell you this, i cant even say it out loud. if i do , im admitting defeat and hes won..... even tho he already has... he wanted to destroy me....he did.
''I just want to feel safe with someone...to not always be wondering how he feels about me, to not always be waiting for him to walk away, to not always be wishing that he'd love me back.I need to be able to trust that a man is there fro me for the right reasons, because he cares enough to be there.'' source: Somewhere Over The Rainbow