"I don't know why we all hang on to something we know we're better off letting go. It's like we're scared to lose what we really don't have. Some of us say we'd rather have that something than nothing, but the truth is to have it halfway is harder than not having it at all. The paradox is that in letting go instead of holding on, you're much more stable."
I'm disgusted when I hear that some Mormons won't read the gospel topics essays on lds dot org. It's only a small taste of the messy truth about the church. Don't worry, it's still watered down and whitewashed.