Honestly. It's just a stupid crush. He hardly is even aware of your existence. Don't waste your time. He isn't wasting his thinking about you when there are so many other prettier, thinner, funnier, and happier girls around.
What do you mean 'never really loved me' I've never met him and never will. He doesn't know I exist and he never will. He will even comment on a pin, follow me, even like my pins. I love him but he doesn't know I exist. He will never notice me ever.