Get strong! Be real & for gods sake stop all your lies & trying to be in our lives!! Your days of being anything at all to us ( especially him) is over! Move on! Get a hobby, a real job, an education & your OWN man!!
Narcissists Lie - "Your not trusting the narcissist will be turned around to paint the picture of YOU being insecure. You will be accused of being “jealous” / insecure / damaged / broken. All things you’re not – but things the narcissist is. You will begin to believe that you are insecure for not trusting them. You in turn, stop trusting yourself and your own perceptions and rely on someone who is lying to you."
Truer words have never been spoken. I could be big again so easily. It's scary. I always wished to be thin before thinking I'd NEVER let myself get big again if I could start over. Well, it's not any easier to avoid my addiction thinner than it was heavier. I could be big again so easily...it scares me.