My brother and I used to ponder why my (now) husband seemed to "feel" like a Christian when he openly announced his agnostic skepticism. I found out after we married that he had been a Christian all along. He gave his life to Christ when he was a teen ager. He and God had just been in a fight for a long time.
The Street by Ann Petry. Originally published in 1946 and hailed by critics as a masterwork. The Street was the first novel written by a black female author to sell over 1,000,000 copies. There was talk that Lena Horne would star in a film version, but it never happened.
I will not cause pain without allowing something new to be born say The Lord Isaiah 66.9 9 Shall I bring to the birth, and not cause to bring forth? saith the Lord: shall I cause to bring forth, and shut the womb? saith thy God.