God knows the heart. God knows your desire. Have faith! Ask, and it shall be given you; seek, and ye shall find; knock, and it shall be opened unto you: For every one that asketh receiveth; and he that seeketh findeth; and to him that knocketh it shall be opened. Matthew 7:7-8
It isn't quite my instinct to exist this way. I'm not sure if it will ever come naturally, but I will be okay either way. I just have to periodically pause and fully absorb a particular perspective - the one that reminds me to live life like this.
People are just as wonderful as sunsets if you let them be. When I look at a sunset, I don't find myself saying, " Soften the orange a bit on the right hand corner." I don't try to control the sunset. I watch with awe as it unfolds. Carl R. Rogers