I always smile. It hurts so much. When I pass by people, I ALWAYS smile. Always. I die a little inside every time I do. They don't know my smiles are fake. They don't know that there is a war inside of me, and I'm losing.
When people look at me I feel so insecure. When they look at me I think the give me dirty looks but I might be imagining and I feel like they laugh at me and I don't understand I don't really have any close friends.