I don't agree with this. If somebody doesn't seek forgiveness, I will not forgive them. I've been on both sides of major forgiveness issues. I've been somebody seeking forgiveness and I've been the victim. In my opinion, seeking forgiveness is harder.
Your journey has molded you for your greater god, and it was exactly what it needed to be. Don't think that you've lost time. It took each and every situation you have encountered to bring you to the now. And now is right on time.
This is one of my favorite quotes of all time. From philosopher Epicurus. Words to live by every day, once we have what we want it ceases to make us happy and we are on to wanting the next thing. Be grateful, appreciate, and you will be happy.