So true! and sometimes even when you are smiling, friends get too upset that you're happy in this situation - and they don't stop to look at your eyes. Sometimes seeing all that pain all the time is just more than the ones who really love you can bear... And they are upset you've placed yourself, or been forced into that situation again!
I don't need a reminder. It is set in my heart forever and ever. I have always known. Missing him only reminds me that I don't have him and reminds me that I lost the one person on this planet that I wanted to love and take care of for the rest of my life and I don't understand why. I am tired of missing...I want to wake up and just forget.