I love this!!<< this is TRUE of motherhood, it develops you in a way that is amazing, people can tell you but until you have children yourself, it is just unknown. My children have taught me so much about myself and about life. I am a better person individually because of them!
THIS is a debilitating side effect of living with a narcissist for 30 years. You never know what they are scheming or when they will deceive you next... but you know they have a hidden agenda and it's coming again and again. The only way to protect yourself is to be on guard every minute. It is exhausting and creates paranoia... and they love that they have that power over you. A very good reason to quit this bullshit.