But .. I *don't hate Death; I'm infinitely curious and slightly enthusiastic about the possibilities of an " after-Life ". At the same time, however, I am a little fearful of being disappointed and being detached from the people and things that I love. Oh, but then there IS the " how " .. I hope I go peacefully =].
This reminds me of my ex-husband. He told me so many lies, I began to not believe him. I lost him. I tried to get through to him. I finally, after 13 years, let him go. He made me laugh, but he also made me cry. I do miss him, but he would not let go of the bad. He would not cross over. I'm very sad.