I not sure if if it will ever make perfect sense, but I will trust God and I will still laugh at the confusion, smile through the tears, walk in grace, refuse to be a dumping board for other's people's drama/junk, and remind myself that everything in my life is part of God's perfect plan. : )
"I methodically and instinctively began jotting down all of the reasons I love you. But more importantly I began writing down all of the reasons I won't lose you. I couldn't get past the first (and only) line. It said: 'Love of my life.'"