Forgiveness is a decision. We decide to cut off the bitter root and plant a seed of love. We cannot blame ourselves if it does not grow; sometimes the other party has poisoned the soil too much. But we must keep the bitter roots cut and plant more and more seeds of love. Forgiveness begins when we make that choice; long before we see the results.
let his hands be at work he does not need your help. he only wants you to you to love him with your whole heart and not half your heart. keep in mind he wants the best for you, yes you may struggle in life but god has it under controle so dont worry or stress. hes got his hand on you :)