Your journey has molded you for your greater god, and it was exactly what it needed to be. Don't think that you've lost time. It took each and every situation you have encountered to bring you to the now. And now is right on time.
"You've always had the power my dear, you just had to learn it for yourself." - Glinda, the good witch, The Wizard of Oz. Wow if we would learn that our power is from God and we already have it? How powerful we would be!
Twenty years from now you will be more dissapointed by the things that you didn't do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines, sail away from safe harbor, catch the trade winds in your sails, explore dream.