We MADE THE DECISION to turn our will and our life over to our higher power. my higher power is the universe. it's a decision. you're done when you're done, and you'll know when you're done. this is where you find out how tuff you are. MAKE THE DECISION.
Being alone changes you, especially if you've been alone for years and years like I have. I never had many friends. To be honest they weren't even friends, they were just people to hang out with at during school. But outside of school I had no one and I mean literally no one. But I had family ... I guess that's something. Eventually you get used to not being able to talk to people.