That sums it up well. No matter how bad things look or are will you still be there? Stop the child's play and be a real adult if you want to have something real. If you want to be recognized and respected as an adult defend what you want and go for him
Hope....This is that little "design voice" I hear every time the "good idea fairy" is in my head! And everyone else is saying "She's crazy to even try it!" . Ha! remember about that time I still have 10 fingers? It's because 1 crazy Doctor said, "Maybe?"