Also on these boards
let it go- "get over it!" or "give it to god" or more eloquently - "...grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, The courage to change the things I can, And wisdom to know the difference." If you can do that, life is soooo much better.
I love you. I don't know what's gonna happen in the future but I have you. You don't know how happy that makes me.
Change your thoughts and your world around you will change...cognitive behavioral therapy can be so helpful with this!