The first part of this verse actually motivated me to for 1 whole week actually listen & follow through with every action step that still small voice tells me... 'I said "plant the good seeds of righteousness, and you will harvest a crop of love. Plow up the hard ground of your hearts' for it is time to seek the LORD, until he comes and showers righteousness on you" Hosea 10:12
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JESUS DYING FOR OUR SINS WAS ALL ABOUT LOVE FOR US: "Let your religion be less of a theory and more of a love affair," G.K. Chesterton. "For God so loved the world, that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish, but have eternal life," John 3:16.
The proverbial "leap of faith" is actually the size of a mustard seed. Keep going. And by the way, look at St. Augustine. Don't become disheartened that you made bad choices in the past; make the best choice you ever made by turning to the Lord-- watch as the Lord, through the Sacraments, reorients your life and puts a lot of broken pieces back together.