The proverbial "leap of faith" is actually the size of a mustard seed. Keep going. And by the way, look at St. Augustine. Don't become disheartened that you made bad choices in the past; make the best choice you ever made by turning to the Lord-- watch as the Lord, through the Sacraments, reorients your life and puts a lot of broken pieces back together.
Here's the thing I don't get about claims that the importance and centrality of the Crucifix somehow means that Catholics "don't worship a risen Christ": what do we call Easter? We can't have the Resurrection without the Crucifixion (and Death of Christ)-- what, after all, did Christ rise FROM?