You'll never change your life until you change something you do daily. The secret of your success is found in your daily routine. Maybe adding a daily habit of more love with your child might make a positive change for both of you.
"Close your eyes and imagine the best version of you possible. That's who you really are, let go of any part of you that doesn't believe it. Assaad ill go a step further & say let go of ANONE who doesn't believe it!