And they never will. As you are so fond of saying: I did this to us. I am heartbroken over my decision, but it was not for the man in my bed, but for the children up in theirs. I can't ask you to wait. I can't ask anything of you. I know what I want in my heart, but I feel you pushing me away. But as you say, I did this to us, and you have every right to do as you please.