Free your mind. Let yourself imagine that your church is a cult, and explore that concept. A non-cultish church wouldn't mind if you tried this. If you're not in a cult, you won't be afraid of / uncomfortable about what they'd think of your private thoughts, nor of the thought of them finding out what you've pondered.
Please know: Whether it's the days you burn more brilliant than the sun or the nights you collapse into my lap, your body broken into a thousand questions, you are the most beautiful thing I've ever seen. I will love you when you are a still day. I will love you when you are a hurricane - Clementine von Radics (mouthful of forevers)
LOVE ME TIL MY HEART STOPS - 16x20 inch Modern Art Print in Silver Gray
.....Never really thought about this feeling, but it was definitely nothing less than what I have always wanted. I just cant stop loving you, this all hurts me more than you know and I want you to just love me til my Heart stops! but I questioned that possibility and for the first time in my life I am scared, for its not my heart, but yours that beats in mine!