Borderline Feature ~ feeling smaller than and less capable of someone else who we wish will rescue us when we have the resources to do so. And, sometimes we need genuine help especially when we learn to find our way out...tough work.
Depression is something I've had to deal with since I got Narcolepsy. I've been fortunate enough to be able to accept this, as well as get better on my own, but I still get those nights where I feel completely miserable for no reason at all. So thankful for my friends for continuing to love me even when I am moody and upset, and always helping me find a way to feel better again :) ♥
Quote on borderline: It doesn’t matter how many times a person tells me they like me. I always think they can change their mind instantly. Always with the fear of rejection. I know it may not be a reality, but it feels very real. -Ana Landa www.HealthyPlace.com
Scared of telling my therapist my true thoughts because he/she might abandon me...common fear. Don't let that feeling take over and "abandon" he/she first for you would really be abandoning taking care of you first. Hang in there when you feel like fleeing talking about it. I promise that you might feel like dying, but you won't if you struggle through it.