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its starts from you, so believe what I know... you are amazing! After all I know you best and I see what you may not, so until you see it too, let me give you the words of encouragement you need, the hand to hold, and the shoulder to lean on! I love you both!
They say that ...when you find yourself, try to become a better person all your shitty friend ...well, they will be gone. God will not allow you to work on you, let you get better and heal and keep bad friends that influence you the wrong way. that is not going to happen.
My philosophy -since the selfishness people are capable of can be overwhelming stick to this and you'll never be at their level...