Ernest Hemingway was no stranger to suffering. His writing was a coping tool to help him face the losses in his life. Both his father and brother committed suicide. If you are suffering in silence please reach out for help.
Trust me, I know how it feels. I know exactly how it feels to cry in the shower so no one will hear you and waiting for everyone to fall asleep so you can fall apart. For everyting to hurt so bad you just want it all to end. I know exactly how it feels.