I *know* no one could ever be as hard on me as I am on myself. That's exactly what I am working to change about myself. It's no small feat. I am learning that it takes a tremendous amount of bravery to admit that I (too) deserve love and acceptance. And I am incredibly proud of myself for trying.
Yeah...I was actually motivated today until doubts crept in and made me sick. I'm not losing another person I refuse. I won't do it. It hurt losing my dad to it. He's back now though. I won't lose other people close to me I won't lose them I cant . I won't.