Sometimes it's hard to justify spending my summer at an overnight horse camp, when everyone else is pursuing research and internships. But I don't have many chances to shape the life of a child, and Raintree is something I need to do. Working with kids and horses during the summer and seeing the impact I have on them gives me strength to draw on during the year.
The control freak in me struggles immensely with this...I've had to learn that I can only control half of life: my half. The other half is up to everyone else. I need to relax because I can't change them. I need to relax. One more time for the cheap seats: I need to relax..
So true. People who don't smile back or wave back, and completely avoid me now that they know about my ED aren't hurting me at all. Those things used to break me because I cared so much about what people thought about me, but not anymore. What I care most about now is how I think about me! And I'm PROUD of myself and my recovery.