Your journey has molded you for your greater god, and it was exactly what it needed to be. Don't think that you've lost time. It took each and every situation you have encountered to bring you to the now. And now is right on time.
Some things you just can't remember enough. I realize everyday how much I have to be thankful for. And everyday I forget again, only to be reminded by some insignificant word or thought how much I have to lose.