But sometimes "this love" leaves you feeling empty, and like an obligation, rather than feeling loved (i.e. loved because your the daughter, sister, etc.). Real love, for a person, means having compassion for them as well, otherwise, love is just a word.
i know what i deserve...and it took a lot of tears and pain and therapy to get here...so why is it that after all that excruciating, painful work i have done to get hear...one single person can convince me that i deserve nothing...that i am nothing???
I've certainly had a couple of very bad days in the past few weeks. But I've fought through the suicidal thoughts and self-destructive urges and I'm okay for now. And I've also had some fantastic days recently. I just have to remember that for the future.
"One day, whether you are 14, 28 14 65 you will stumble upon someone who will start a fire in you that cannot die. However, the saddest most awful truth you will ever come to find-- is they are not always with whom we spend our lives."
"Getting there"...remembering to EXHALE & learning PATIENCE one of these days (I'm only wink!) makes me curious whether I'll ever have the right "key" to arrive @my "intended destination" -LOL♥ Gimme some ocean & sand between me toes & I be mighty ZEN...M