This seems like a selfish way to live life. Good things can come out of something bad, but I don't think that you should ever be happy about the bad situation, especially if you hurt someone in the process.
I needed this, I'm sorry and I've forgiven you too. I just wish we could move on like it was when we were little girls, I miss and love you more than you know. I have dreams every night of you and wish things were different. No matter how mad you still are at me, I will always be here for you and the girls. Love you!