I wish I was as strong as the people around me think I am. I feel like I’m falling behind and that I’m missing out on so many amazing things because of my mental hang ups. But I can’t dwell on those thoughts. They are negative and will only serve to hold me back.
That actually makes me feel a little bit better. I know that sounds strange, but I fear loving another for just that reason - trust. If the same thing were to happen ever again, I truly don't think I'd be able to come out the other side like I did, kicking, scratching, and screaming (metaphorically speaking) this time. So... let's just keep it simple, shall we?