this almost got me crying, even though I've never drank black coffee or skipped breakfast but thats not where this post is about, it is about what my younger self would think I am doing.. About how she would not believe it..
I can't tell you what to do, but if you would try to develop a relationship with God, He will give you peace! It doesn't mean that you will not have problems and hard times, but He helps you through it all! God loves us, no matter what we do, if we turn to Him and ask for forgiveness, He will bless us! Sometimes we just have to fight our own feelings and do God's Will.
Suddenly the images weren't of nice things, but of horrors. Him, coming home, covered in blood. Killing her nanny because she was too attached. Torturing her because she defied him. She was almost crying now. "Please. Make it stop. Please let me die." She whispered. "Please."