The more I opened my heart, the more convinced I became that life is equal parts brutal and beautiful. Both are woven together so tightly they can't be separated. Life is brutiful. Sharing that truth is what makes us feel less alone and afraid.
I got some help defining this duality from Pema Chodron this morning in Things Fall Apart (thank you , Jen!). She describes a sign pinned to her wall that reads: “only to the extent that we expose ourselves over and over to annihilation can that which is indestructible be found in us.”
I love my daughters very much, but will always miss their brother. Ben we love you and your hello every evening, like clock work, because it is your watch alarm that goes off every evening, for almost 16 years now, we still haven't changed the battery! Thanks for keeping an eye on us.