Right now is a time when i think im never going to get better. I will never be good enough for myself or for anyone. Ill never get to live my dream performing on a stage in front of thousands of people. Im just not enough . Maybe he was right, i really am worthless . Maybe what im going though wont get any better . I dont think it could get any worse so it just has to get better. It has to right?
I always have to pretend Im okay, that everything is fine, that Im fine but Im not and no one will ever know because they'll always think everything is okay just from that one little smile that appears on my face.