This, too, shall pass. ~ ~ Emotions are like the waves of the ocean; they rise, and they fall. Find the peace in that. Be ok with it. Ride the wave. It will subside. Sure need this at the moment, but hope it's soon!
The main reason why it is important for infants' eyes to be examined promptly, when there is a question about whether they are straight,is because a crossed eye will gradually become nonseeing if efforts are not begun early to make the child use it.